I have taken a break from from my blog and blog accounts for the past two or three weeks. I’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed with everything that is happening and that is going to happen in the next five months. I’m leaving for my bachelorette trip weekend in about a month and a half. Three weeks after that, I’m throwing one of my best friends a bridal shower. Two weeks after that, she’s throwing me a bridal shower. About three weeks after that, my fiance is in the wedding of some good friends of ours. The next weekend after that? I’m in my best friends wedding. Approximately 35 days later, I’M GETTING MARRIED. To top it allllll off, I’m then moving to a new state to finally be with my future husband after almost three years in a long distance relationship.
I think I’m slowly losing my mind sometimes. I’m trying to fully be where I am and to enjoy every step of the process, but some days, I just feel overwhelmed and stressed. Between coming up with the money and trying to make sure I’m not forgetting anything or anyone, I’ve thought about eloping more in the last six months than I ever thought I would in my life! I’ve gained weight and I have no motivation to workout with everything going on right now. As you can tell, I’ve been focusing on the negatives recently. I go through these periods where I stress and I worry and I’m a mess and sometimes it’s harder to pull myself out of those places than other times.
Despite all of the stress, I am still so excited to be marrying my best friend in about four and a half months! We have been through so much in the short five and a half years we’ve been together. As I mentioned earlier, we’ve been rocking the long distance relationship for almost the past two and a half years so to be able to see that FINALLY come to a happy close is so exciting.
As I’m sitting around coming up with budgets for what my parents are so graciously paying for for the wedding and then another one for what my fiance and I are paying for, it all starts to come together. I have this vision in my head of how I want everything to look. I know how I want the gazebo decorated. I know what table runners I want. I know how I want the lighting and centerpieces and everything in between. I know I need to slow down and take it all in because it will be over in a little over four short months. The budgets will be done, the decorations will either by stored away or sold, and the dress will be dry cleaned and put in storage.
You know what I’ll have that’s better than any of my plans? I’ll have a new husband that I’ll actually get to see more than the a couple of times every other month or so. As hard as it is at times to keep everything in perspective, I know that, ultimately, this wedding is about starting our life together. I know, without a doubt, that he has my back and that we’re more than ready to take this next step together. I’m excited… have I said that already?
Anyway, now that I’ve spilled a little bit of my life and the craziness that’s been going on in my brain recently, I will be back to hopefully posting regularly and being more involved on Instagram and Twitter soon! Let me know below how you deal with everyday craziness and, if you’re married, how you dealt with the stress of wedding planning and budgeting!